Thank you...

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Leaving you once was hard enough, to have done it the second time would have been impossible. 
I loved you too much to have let you go again. Though I'm still grieving over what might have been, 
...find myself thankful that you came into my life for even a short period of time. In the beginning, 
I'd assumed that we were somehow brought together to help me through my time of grief. 
Yet now, four years later, I've come to believe that it was the other way around.

Ironically, I was in the same position I was in the first time we met. 
As I write, I am struggling with the ghost of someone I loved and lost. 
I now understand more fully the difficulties I was going through, 
and I realized how painful it must have been for me to move on. 

Sometimes, my grief is so overwhelming, and even though I understand 
that we could never see each other again, there is a part of me that wants 
to hold on to you forever. Yet, this is the paradox: 

Even though I miss you greatly, 
it's because of you that I don't dread the future. You taught me that it's
possible to move forward in life, no matter how terrible your grief. 
And in your own way, you've made me believe that true love cannot be denied.

Right now, I don't think I'm ready ... but this is my choice. 
Do not blame yourself. Because of you, I am hopeful that there will 
come a day when my sadness is replaced by something beautiful.
Because of you, I have the strength to go on.

I will sense your presence everywhere.
When I listen to the ocean, it will be your whispers; when I see a dazzling sunset,
it will be your image in the sky. You are not gone forever, no matter who comes into my life. 
You are standing alongside my soul, helping to guide me toward a future that I cannot predict,.


It is better to have loved and lost, than never to have loved at all. Maybe we're not meant to be together in this lifetime. 
But if by chance we meet again in our next life, I promise I will never let you go.... 

Thank you ... for being...


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*Rearrange from multiple of sources*