Who said live to hope..?...But me.....no encouragement

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The world is open,
freedom's gathered,
life is fresh,
prayers are answered;
gently fluttered,
youth is mine,
it sails life's sea,
I'm fine artistry.
My spirit has just woken,
it stretches wings with ease,
visions slip bright colours
as I fall onto my knees,
emotions I appease
while flapped in silent breeze,
all my silver fancies
wrap up poetry.
And dreams pulse light across
the shadow that I cast,
beauty swerves into the future
as it waves goodbye to the past,
I wander cool illusions,
take flight across the sky,
barriers are broken
in the confines of my eye.
An eternal fascination
runs through my wide mind,
its laughter is inspiration
to all that I find,
I capture moments gladly
while heartbeats take control,
here I soar the heavens,
here I free my soul.
Can you hear the ripples?
A twist of fate; cruel wind,
reality's butted in with malice,
cyclonic circulation rips my skin,
atmospheric counter-clockwise spin
is pummelling with anguish,
casually, violently, I'm tossed about,
agony drips from battered chains
as I scream my tortured doubt.
Wonder's lost in intensity,
freedom's blown to dust,
I shout for escape's release
but only find anger's lust,
my voice becomes a shrill howl
as breath is snatched away with growls,
despair is in the swirled air's rusted grin
that beats against my jowls.
And in the trap of confusion,
memory plays its cards,
showing me where I smiled
in musical courtyards,
but here and now's too certain,
it scrapes against my thighs,
I fear the final curtain
will be no real surprise.
The scenery's unwrapping
as I tumble here to there,
sighs pop before this casting;
is my life going nowhere?
Suddenly I sense another
and quickly turn to look,
I spy God's tilted graceful face
as He writes in His good book.
Oh mercy me, please take me,
I'll do whatever you decree,
hear my passionate plea
stutter through eternity.
The answers that I longed for
are before this ragged shell,
if only I could reach out
and escape from this mad hell,
vulnerable and frightened,
I set fire to all my tears
and live in hope's embrace
while devouring these fears,
majestic is His presence
I bow down all my dark years.
Oh mercy me, please take me
from this devil's invisible army,
lift me into arms so softly
and place me in fields of wild carefree.
It's another lifetime 
trapped in stone, in lime,
another cough of boredom
in the day; gruesome,
I wish that hours were not so long
as I roam the spirals of my song.