Letter

Ahab

	If you got this letter then Im no longer breath. Im sorry that I have to tell these things to you this way...Im known youre mad andsad? May be? Anyway, listen. 
     First of all, my death was my fault and my fault alone. You know the problem, right? Im just too lazy to go on with this boring life everyday is boring. See? Since I open my eyes in the morning (afternoon and maybe evening on some good day) I always wonder why I bother to open my eyes at all. Nothing to see, that I wanna see. Nothing to do, that I wanna do. Sure I might like to create website, play with some stupid source code or read some stupid X-files script, some stupid classic 60s American novel. Well, these I liked. but life was not that good, I have to go to school(college or whatever youll call) and take these stupid class with some friends who speaks other language than mine(who watch these stupid Thai TV sitcom anyway?)  And help me god...these classes, true it might come in handy someday but hey, what the heck, I dont like it, hate it, despise it so...why I have to bear with it. See? Theres only way to escape these stupid classes. Okay I know its sound very crazy, but you do understand, right?
     All right, second. Hmm...Therere no second. See my point? I cant even come up with second reasons to end my own sorry life. Coz theres nothing to come up with. My life was nothing. To tell you the truth, you may better off without me. Everyone may better off without me. I have no future anyway, not with my lifestyle right now.
    So, heres summery for one who doesnt understand the whole point of my action. I. Am. Lazy. End of story. Zip.
    And hey...did it feel good? To be able to let it all go away? Im meat now, like I always say.
   Heres the bottom line. I love you and you better know it. I love my brothers and sisters too. I love my family, everyone was good to me. Its just that I dont fit in. no offense...kay? Im grateful for what everyone does for me; just sorry I dont make it to the day that I can pay em all back. Im not going to say that I will always with you guys. Coz, like I said, you all better off without me.